I’m not sure why it seems like I should be listening to the universe now, when it is completely not my inclination to do so, but here I am. Listening to the Universe.
I’ve kind of been doing it more than usual, trying to figure out where I’m going, but for some reason, what the Universe is saying seems to be making more of a difference. Hmm.
Listening to What Matters
A few months ago I heard or read that no one cares how hard you work. That is pretty hard to hear when you have prided yourself for years on how hard you work. But it hit home. I work hard doing what I love and want to do, but I often don’t feel that there is much reward. I started listening to what that might mean. I even managed to cut myself a little slack. I continue to work hard, but I have been trying to select what that hard work is applied to. I am listening, but I don’t always like the answers.
I started thinking about what I’m trying to accomplish. This required listening to myself too, not just the Universe. I also tried listening to questions I get asked, and what people seem to react to from me. It turns out it is hard to keep listening, so this has been a stop and go proposition!
Trust me, when you are listening, there are lots of voices! I didn’t want to make any of this “you should”. I’ve spent way more of my time responding to that and I suspect that is just what has gotten me to this hard work, not so many rewards place. I realized I needed more Jill-focused things in my life. As someone who feels I am pretty self-involved, that seemed kind of crazy. But I did start listening a little bit to the “I could do that” or “I should try that” voices I hear. Interestingly, my inclination wasn’t always selfishly motivated.
There are also other people who can give you clues if you are listening, or if you are paying attention when you answer questions. That’s how I ended up doing my grading classes for designers and tech editors. This is not necessarily something that is making me work less, because it is hard to create and deliver good class materials. It is something that is making me excited.
The hardest part of listening is figuring out what matters and what is useful. I never lack ideas and things I want to do, so it always comes down to having priorities figured out. Figuring out how to make those priorities important for you and others who support you is the key.
It is hard to pay attention. It is hard to hear things that may not be what you wanted to hear. It is hard to set priorities. It is mostly really hard to let go and find new ways to do things.
I’ve been reviewing yarns for Anzula’s blog. They released a new yarn yesterday, and I wrote this review of Gerty. It is really a great yarn. I found the websites completely unhelpful, so if you want to try this yarn, I’d pick up the phone and order it that way.